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It occurrs to me that normally I would have posted about my b-day party, and I haven't, and I in no way want to imply that it wasn't worthy of thankful posting.
I am just waiting until after today, because anniversaries tend to kinda suck, my birthday has a long history of very much sucking (had to kick a father out of my life on one, and then on my 16th I was grounded for 2 month and got into a physical fight with my mother, etc...), and part of me feels if I start talking about how awesome my b-day party was in a public place, today is going to have to suck so much more so in order to balance it out. (This is a psychological complex where I can't even tell you what year (let alone day) my current boyfriend and I started dating 'cause, my subconscious knows that celebrations of relevent life dates suck, and I have a lot of trouble remembering when they are as protection.)
The b-day horrors might have ended, but I don't want to jinx myself. It was a good party, and the verbage on how good is coming. Just got to get through today (which has not sucked yet, and might not, but again, no jinxing).
I am just waiting until after today, because anniversaries tend to kinda suck, my birthday has a long history of very much sucking (had to kick a father out of my life on one, and then on my 16th I was grounded for 2 month and got into a physical fight with my mother, etc...), and part of me feels if I start talking about how awesome my b-day party was in a public place, today is going to have to suck so much more so in order to balance it out. (This is a psychological complex where I can't even tell you what year (let alone day) my current boyfriend and I started dating 'cause, my subconscious knows that celebrations of relevent life dates suck, and I have a lot of trouble remembering when they are as protection.)
The b-day horrors might have ended, but I don't want to jinx myself. It was a good party, and the verbage on how good is coming. Just got to get through today (which has not sucked yet, and might not, but again, no jinxing).
